July 2020 Goals

It’s been awhile since I’ve written a goals list but I figured I should start it up again!

How crazy is it that we’re more than half way through the year already?! That’s insane! But I hope the end of 2020 and the start of 2021 will be better.

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Monday Mindful Manifestation

This morning I thought of something I wanted to manifest and wanted to share it on my blog; maybe every week I’ll make it a point to think of what I want to manifest for that week or even just that day.

I admit that I absolutely tend to care what people say or think about me. Sometimes a little too much. There was a time I legitimately didn’t care cause I was either so self confident in myself or too full of myself to even believe them; I often miss those days and wonder where they went — but tbh they were the last days before anxiety crept into my life and changed everything.

It’s been over 10 years since then and my name has been dragged through the mud so much since. Between ex boyfriends and ex husbands who tell reverse tales of what really happened, to ex and current in laws who shame me for speaking about mental health and sharing my stories (which to them makes me “full of shit” and a bad mom).

I know you can’t please everyone and the ones who know you best will always know who you truly are despite what anyone says about you; but it does bother me. And it does take a lot of my thought process and healing space.

So this week, I’m manifesting the quote above; people will always have something to say about you, but what they say and what they think is none of your business in the first place.

What I think about myself is my business.

What are you hoping to manifest this week?

Fuck The Flu;

This week has been awful.

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Bubba got the flu last Saturday and he passed it to Tums who then passed it to me. Bubba seemed to get over it the quickest at like 2 days. Tums took about maybe 3 days and I’m  still sick a week later. I’m starting to feel a little more like myself every day; minus the dizziness and not being very hungry.

But at least the fevers for me only lasted about 2 days. Every time I ate I felt like throwing up and the dizziness came around day 4 and still hasn’t left. It’s not like super extreme or anything but enough to be annoying. I’ve been trying to get as much rest and sleep as I can (something that’s hard to do with a baby who can’t self soothe yet) and forcing myself to eat. I’m awful when it comes to liquids mainly because I HATE water but I’ve been trying to drink juice and eat more soup, at least.

Getting the flu always feels like you don’t remember what feeling  well feels like lmao, it’s so weird. And it definitely puts you in the I’ll-be-better-with-my-health plea to the universe.

So, here’s how I plan to be better at being healthy;

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Blogmas 2019 ↠ Hello December

I know, this post is super late today but I just didn’t have time to post it any earlier sadly.

And even now, the baby is sick with a cold (I hope it’s a cold) so she’s really clingy and feeling miserable.

I know blogging as been pushed to the side and even though I’m trying super hard to get back into my social media, it’s been a challenge. Throw in drama over a post and it pretty much destroyed any happiness I had linked to writing, especially on Facebook.

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Happy Blogtober 🎃

It’s officially October 1st!

And even though I like to start Fall prepping in July; I never think of blog/vlogtober prep. No matter how many years it’s been now.

I’ve decided this year to try my hand at doing both. I miss making content and maybe this will help spark up some inspo and get me back into the groove of creating content.

First of all; was the last time I really blogged when I was 33 weeks?!

Yikes, I have a lot of catching up to do! I also have a lot of foodie reviews I need to do on the family blog!

I don’t have anything fun or cool pre planned, I’m kinda just winging this so we’ll see how this goes… or rather how long I’ll last 😂.

It’s not funny, but I’m hoping it will be. I think.

Are you planning on doing blog/vlogtober? Do you have any planned out topics if you are?

Hello, 2019

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I can’t believe it’s 2019… already.

But then again how many of us are saying that this week?!

Every year for the last few years I’ve done {onelittleword} and for the last 2 years Bubba has chosen my word for me — this year he picked L E A R N as my word for 2019.

As new parents (I can’t believe she’ll be here in a few months! It’s so crazy to think about!) this year we’re going to do a lot of learning and I’m determined to not be one of those parents who let their newborn change their life as drastically as everyone says they will.

I’ve never been friends with the concept of sleep; to be honest I’ve probably gotten more sleep since BEING pregnant, despite all the discomforts than I’ve gotten naturally since 2004. Like my biggest excitement is the ability to fall asleep at night WITHOUT sleeping aids as I’ve been heavily dependent on them to get me to sleep since 2004. Me and sleep just haven’t gotten along in a really long time.

In addition to being new parents I really want to get back into learning in general. I still need to learn the rest of French and I want to start learning Spanish. I want to relearn the social media world as well as how to make the most out of my blogging and getting back into graphic design. I want to learn how to bake. How to cook better meals. How to be a better version of myself.

There’s much power in knowledge and I feel like the last few years I’ve been in a haze of just winging things; I want to go back to being that determined person with goals and intention.

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Hello, April!

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I love Tulips.

I’d love if I could afford them right now too, but since I can’t. Picture taking will have to do.

It’s five days into the new month. Five D A Y S and bills are already fucking me. Ya’ll I’m so tired of paying bills. Like it’s not even funny how tired I am! I guess that falls back to me and past me and all the dumb shit past me was doing but then again I’m extra mad at past me for not telling those other dudes who were using me to get they own shit!

It’s my birth month and I’m never excited about my birthday. I mean I was pretty excited last year since Bubba was spending the week with me at Disney World but generally speaking, I’m never really excited.

I can’t do my usual traditions cause I’m not in Florida anymore. Also Bubba started a new job (which I’m really happy about) but he’s working on my birthday. I’m trying to be somewhat not a poopy pants about it but let’s be real, after I turned 25 without a BA in sight I was just like LORT ANOTHER YEAR OLDER. ANOTHER YEAR FAILED.

And that’s definitely NOT the way you should be viewing life.

Granted there’s nothing exciting about turning 33, still trying to rebuild your shit and yourself and thinking godammit I should get off FB with all these people and their careers and vacations. Which is why I’m never really on FB anymore. I post what I need to post, stalk who I need to stalk and get off!

This blog post wasn’t suppose to be about me, it was suppose to be about my goals for April.

⇢ Get your shit together (at least a little bit)
⇢ Read 3 books (and not on the last day of the month)
⇢ Blog more // I know shit can be hard but girl it’s your release SO QUIT IT
⇢ EXPLORE more, spend LESS
⇢ Apartment hunting
⇢ Tidy room & closet / purge shit you really don’t need
⇢ Sort digital stuff / back up laptop (since it’s been like years since you did)
⇢ Get RDM and AST to 60 on FFXIV
⇢ Find something that calms you
⇢ Practice better time management
⇢ Catch up on reviews that need to be written
⇢ Celebrate your birthday… the best you can

I know Bubba puts a lot of effort into everything. And I know it might be killing him that he can’t go all out on the day of my birthday this year and that the only thing I asked for was food adventures but I guess when you get older the experiences matter more than getting things. And normally I go on vacation for my birthday — which I was excited moving closer to the West Coast cause I really wanted to celebrate my birthday in Vegas & Disneyland like I use to when I lived in CA 7 years ago but that didn’t work out.

So this year I hope I find a new birthday tradition and I hope I find some enlightenment or motivation to get up and do something MORE. I mean I always want to do more but it’s actually doing it lately that’s the problem (which was never a problem before, so I’m confused as to why it is now).

So here’s to April; my personal restart button.